WALKING BY FAITH, NOT BY SIGHT!

“Walking by faith…not by sight!”  2 Corinthians 5:7

If I ever did, I never will again take my eyesight for granted!  I am typing this in Microsoft Word in a very large font so that I can see it even blurry!  I cannot read what is written on fb and I thank my super adult grand children (Whitney, Jay & Amy) for taking care of me since Sunday with my second eye surgery.

Both eye surgeries have gone very well according to the surgeon.  I have a very different “view” ~ a very blurry one!  I will not be able to get some reading glasses until tomorrow (Wednesday) afternoon.  However, I feel so useless and handicapped and totally out of contact.  I know that my kids have tried to keep a word on fb and I thank them.

I am most thankful that I can type without seeing the keyboard, but it’s tough not knowing if I’m spelling correctly.  Enough said!  I want to praise the Lord for His “always with me” Presence.  He loves me beyond my expression or even understanding…but I praise Him for proving He is all that He says He is in His Word, The Bible.

The second eye has been very different than the first.  This one has had some discomfort with hurting; and it has bled.  This has played with my fuzzy mind and I have wondered if I truly was going to be better after all this surgery.  Well, I do see very well without glasses for distance.  But now, I will have to wear glasses to read.  This is totally opposite of my eye condition before.  I will adjust.  The pressure in my right eye is not recovered yet and I have to go back to the eye doctor tomorrow to have it checked.

An interesting thing happened while the assistant was checking my eyes and preparing me for the doctor  to check.  I was telling her about my question of the eye being so sore and the bleeding and not being able to see; and all of a sudden I just fell apart and started crying.  She was so sweet to comfort me and assure me that I was fine and my eyes were great!  Then my heart exploded with the truth being suppressed that I didn’t know was brewing there.  We learned early this morning that our Uganda love, Florence was denied a visa to come to America to be with our family – actually my son, Tim and his family.  She had received a visa and then had it taken back when she applied for a passport and then told she had to have another appointment with the Ugandan Embassy, which was today and they denied it because of something to do with her father’s death.  Florence has been in the orphanage most of her life.  She just turned 15 in May.  There are, of course, lots of factors we don’t know about and some we can’t share, but we are all disappointed at this point.  We do know that God is greater than the Ugandan government and He will do what is best…in HIS own way; at HIS timing…and EVERYONE will know He is God and His plans are reality.  We will pray for Him to help our unbelief and help us to trust Him and praise Him for what He is going to do.

The amazing part of this little story is that they took my blood pressure after I calmed down and it was the lowest it has been in over a week!  It was 124/74!  It has peaked at as much as 154/108!  I guess I just needed to have a good cleansing cry.  In addition, there was the wonderful atmosphere of a young lady named Linda that felt my heart and hugged me and supplied me with lots of Kleenex and told me that Dr. Eanes would pray for me.  Are you realizing I am in an office?  Would this be a normal reaction for my situation?  I don’t think so because I have experience the professional way and I can say this was much more comforting and satisfying, and obviously effective physically, too.  God provided me with His Body to come to my aid. Dr. Eanes also gave me some very encouraging words about Florence and trusting God is in control and has a plan.  He is a missionary eye surgeon who just returned from a trip to Africa, I think.

Also, yesterday my grandson(in law) Jay took me for my surgery and while they were getting me ready, he went to the main surgery building to try and see a friend of his who was having surgery also.  I asked the nurse if he couldn’t get back before I go in for surgery if someone could pray for me.  I know that my prayers are sufficient, but it’s nice for someone else to add to them.  She said:  “Well we don’t have a chaplain on duty but any of us would!”  Did you hear that?  I have been surrounded by God’s Love and Presence every minute, there is no reason to fear!  I thank Him for keeping me reminded in such loving ways.

By the way, He is with you, too if you belong to Him.  Just look around and see if He isn’t there loving you!

Because I am tired from trying to read and straining my eyes, I am going to lie down and rest and have a delightful time talking with my Lord and praising Him in all our situations.  Why?  Because He alone is worthy to be praised; He alone is the Answer; He alone is Life, now and forevermore! ~Betty *smiling :)