“When He(Jesus) was alone the twelve…asked of Him…”
“When they were alone, He(Jesus) expounded all things to His disciples.”
Mark 4:10; 34 [emphasis
mine]
When
I get alone with God, I usually want something from Him!
I
have come to realize that Jesus does not take us alone and expound things to us
all the time; He expounds things to us when we are ready to understand them. Why we aren’t ready on any given day is
because we have too much of “us” in the way.
We usually come to him when our little world has been upset and we begin
to fuss to God about our woes. We have to
get rid of the idea that we understand ourselves – we are so conceited, and it
is usually the last thing we let go of!
The only One Who understands us is God.
If we ever get a glimpse of what we look like in His sight, we will
never say “I am so unworthy!” Reality of
God and myself brings a revelation of what is humble and what is pride. We can pridefully say “I am unworthy,” but when I get alone with God and see myself
truthfully, I know I am unworthy
without expressing it. Pride or conceit
will keep us from being intimately alone with God. He will bring us to facing the painful truth
of ourselves so that we can truly be alone with Him.
When
God gets me alone with Him, I want more of HIM!
I
have come to realize that God surprises me with mountaintop retreats filled
with revelation when I least expect it.
It is usually after He has
broken my heart; after he has
brought me to seeking Him about some affliction, heartbreak, temptation,
disappointment, sickness, broken friendship or rejection; after I have stopped questioning “why” and put all my affections (everything that takes my focus off Him; things I
don’t want to let go of; idols) on the altar of sacrifice and letting go. After we put “self” to death in our
life then the questions stop and all we want is more of Him. He is delighted with us and His Spirit can
now take us into intimacy where He expounds His Love and reveals Himself so
that I now understand with an understanding that cannot be expressed.
Getting alone
with God can only be a delight when we only want to delight in Him!
My prayer: Thank You, Lord,
for knowing me and Your timing for when I am ready to be made fit for Your
purpose. It takes so long because we are
so self-focused. Breaking of “self” is
so hard but I want to be made new; refined and recreated into Your purposed
life. What do I need to see today; how
do I need to offer myself – here I am.
Make my “I” into “HIM!”
Oh how I love it when You make our alone time, Lord. I just don’t want it to end; I want to sit in
Your Presence and talk, and learn and soak in Your Love. Life stops and Heaven becomes real. These moments are so cherished they cannot be
shared – and yet anyone can know it. Thank
You for loving me.
“I am crucified with Christ, nevertheless
I live, yet not I but Christ that liveth in me.”
Galatians 2:20
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