I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no
way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ
will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death.
For to me, to live is Christ and to die is
gain.
If I am to go on living in the body, this
will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know!
Philippians 1:20-22 NIV
HOW
TO HAVE A HAPPY CHRISTIAN LIFE
To live is Christ and to die is gain!
Paul’s testimony continues to reveal that the Source and
motivation of his Joy while he is in prison is Jesus Christ who lives within
him – HE is his Life!
He has the assurance of the prayers of this church on his behalf
and The Spirit of Jesus Christ within him that everything is going to turn out
for his best whether in life or death.
Today he shows us what’s on his mind and heart as he explains to
these people who love him but have anxiety because of his imprisonment. Paul is
trying to help them see that his situation is not one of despair, but one of
opportunity. His desire is that he will in no way ever be ashamed for not
exalting Christ in his physical condition whether he lives or dies!
I think he is giving his own excellent eulogy and epitaph and
one we should give some thought and perhaps put to memory.
“FOR
ME TO LIVE IS CHRIST AND TO DIE IS GAIN.”
He adds that IF he should go on living it would be so that he could continue to preach the Gospel and bring others to Jesus Christ. He doesn’t know which would be better, if he could choose.
As I
read this journal page of this day in 2017, I immediately thought about my
friend ROSE and how The Lord has worked His higher ways into our lives over the
past 3 years. Isaiah 55:8-9
“For
my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As
the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
When I retired from working in 2017, The Lord had impressed upon my heart that I needed to minister to 3 people who had different kinds of need. Rose was the first one, and she was struggling with her finances and her hearing. We made a budget and worked on getting her debts and income in better order. Then we looked into her hearing problem. After numerous hearing tests and evaluations, she was recommended to the Jacksonville Hearing and Balance Institute and Dr. Douglas Green. He is an expert doctor, surgeon and author specializing in the surgical treatment of complex inner ear problems in the area of otorhinolaryngology. He discovered Rose’s hearing problem was that her nerve system was damaged and could only be helped with a cochlear implant. We made lots of trips to Jacksonville in the process of testing, educating and surgery. Rose had excellent results and could finally hear again. However, she had some exercises required to train her brain and body to return to normal activity. We went through lots of trips to Waycross for balance therapy and Jacksonville for hearing and brain therapy. She started out well, but into the first year she decided she didn’t want to do the exercises but she like going to her therapist and seeing Dr. Green. She did not like doing the brain exercises of reading, talking and listening and became angry at being told it was necessary; and finally resisted and became hostile with frequent meltdowns! Her medical doctor directed her to psychological treatment. Discovery was that her mind was good, but her strong will nature was unwilling to accept she had to exercise it or it would eventually stop; that she did have a mini stroke in the past; and some medications were needed to help calm her. Dr. Green said it was very hard to discern the difference from dementia and the poorly exercised brain. Rose has finally been classed and treated with dementia because of her behavior……………….
It would take too long to explain all that has happened with Rose since her cochlear implant, but the results are that technically without her implant on she is deaf and has no stimulation to the nerves to her brain. Between her taking the hearing device off, losing it; nurses not knowing how to use it; losing one expensive battery and breaking the other; and with Rose being in bed mostly the implant won’t stay on! I tell you that so that you will understand the Reality of God’s Love and Presence and the reason for the Scriptures above.
In the past week, Rose has gone from not saying
anything; eating very little and little body movement and clinched fists. This week, she has had visits from her
children and friends and had loving nurses and hospice all communicating to her
and loving her. As of last night, I have
observed her TALKING, WAVING IN RETURN TO A WAVE, HOLDING MY HAND WITH HER SOFT
HAND; EATING ABOUT 50 % OF HER MEAL, DRINKING MORE LIQUIDS, LISTENING TO
READING THE BIBLE AND TO PRAYERS; MOVING HER HANDS AND FEET AND LEGS!~~”God’s
ways are higher than our ways…”
and I think He is demonstrating that to, through and around Rose at this
time, so that to live is Christ, to die is gaining home!